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(image from Solar Biology by Hiram E. Butler via here)

“aries – you are not a villain
because you couldn’t be their hero
remember that self-preservation
is not the same as cruelty
(do what you need to.)
taurus – you did not need to work so tirelessly
to ensure that people believed
you were worth the effort
they always did. you always were.
(be selfish.)
gemini – you are playing by rules
that nobody else knows
are you winning the game,
or are you the only one playing?
(this is not your defeat.)
cancer – refusal to confront them directly
does not make you a lesser warrior
pick up your pen
unleash upon them your paper monsters
(fight the good fight.)
leo – stop carving out new wounds
in an effort to forget old ones
stop hoping that every goodbye
is a “to be continued”
(lose their number.)
virgo – “everything happens for a reason”
is thought of as true
but it may also be
just another one of your excuses
(take responsibility.)
libra – you cannot shoulder
both a fear of being forgotten
and a fear that everyone remembers
what you did
(forgive yourself.)
scorpio – do not fear your own insignificance
instead take comfort in the fact
that the stars will not think less of you
if you can’t handle this alone
(stop. breathe.)
sagittarius – your kindness may look
like weakness
but you are not weak
you were never weak
(this is as it should be.)
capricorn – all the ugly things you never said
have gathered and lingered like blood under your fingernails
your world has no need of that ugliness now
clean your hands, it’s alright.
(it will never be like before.)
aquarius – perspective is everything
what to you seems like an air of mystery
may seem to everyone else a question
of whether you ever existed at all
(tell them everything.)
pisces – you will not find “happily ever after”
through living one chapter again and again
you’ve learned all you can from this
move forward
(you owe the past nothing.)”

via That Kind of Woman

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Photo by Helmut Newton, Vogue Paris, 1971

 

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FEELING so much more at ease this week.

ANTICIPATING a great Thanksgiving in Boulder.

COOKING a lot more than usual and really loving it.

 

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RESETTLING in Cleveland for the week before heading to Florida for Thanksgiving.

SETTING aside some time to refocus on all the odds and ends that get overlooked in all my moving around.

FEELING so loved after an incredible birthday last week!

Look at this face!

Bambino! Here are only just a few of my favorite things about you:

You have always been a badass

You always do the right thing

You can move your body in a way no one else can

You are literally down to do almost anything at anytime (except early morning)

You are so damn loyal

You are kind to others

You are never too scared to put yourself out there

You are so rational when it matters most

You call 911 when there might be an emergency

You are so gosh darn creative

You can laugh at yourself

You are so thoughtful

Your style is outta control and only getting better and better

Your point of you is unlike anyone elses

You might have a shopping addiction

I like Van Morrison because of you

You dare me to do something in public and when I do you act like you don’t know me

You can wait longer than anyone I know to feed yourself

You are my best friend

And if that wasn’t enough. The video of you below says it all:

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My funk this week snuck up on me swiftly. One moment I was fine, the next moment there was this…dis-ease. Sure, this happens now and then. I’ve gotten into a “bad mood” many times before. But this funk was different. The tastes and the textures of it felt unfamiliar. There was almost a distance that I felt from it. There was me and then there was this funk. We were not one in the same. The difference was that I was completely aware of it – as if it was sitting next to me. In dull moments, I would hear it whisper to me. But I would just hush it. I was more aware of the ways my mind was trying to indulge in itself and tell me things that were simply not true. I decided not to take the thoughts and feast on them, like I normally would.  I decided not to pretend to be my own fortune teller (ok, maybe I did for a second, but I caught myself) or re-write history. I decided not to overtalk the funk like I normally would have. Sure, when I felt sad, I let myself. When I felt lonely, I really let myself. When I felt defeated, I let myself. But I didn’t tell myself I AM sad, lonely and defeated. As I write this, I now know that the trigger of this funk was change. Change is a wild beast that can’t be tamed and why would we want it to? It is what makes life exciting, unbelievable and fascinating. Sometimes when it happens in a way that is familiar, I panic.

The biggest game changer in this funk was my awareness of it. I guess I didn’t full realize that that awareness alone is some powerful shit.

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In the morning
drink a warm cup of water

Have a water bottle to fill and
drink throughout the day

Practice yoga as close to daily
as possible. You love it!

Grocery shop. Make smoothies/
smoothie bowls

Eat oatmeal. Make salads

Learn veggie dishes.

Go to sleep before midnight.

Write a little everyday. It can
be on legal paper that
you immediately tear up and
throw away

slowly, slowly

There are so many ways to
live. As a traveler. A worker.
A gypsy. A daughter. A friend.
A host.

Buy a house in Cleveland. Run
it as a bnb. a shop. a
wellness and creative space.

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(image: Jeanloup Sieff, Vogue Paris, 1978

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BAKING apple crisp with coconut cream (it’s so easy!)

LISTENING to records in the morning and setting the mood for the day.

WATCHING Azi Ansari’s new show, Master of None. It is pretty entertaining.

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INDULGING in some serious pop music 24/7, including Justins Bieber and Timberlake on heavy rotation.

REFLECTING on a really powerful Phoenix Rising yoga therapy session I received today.  The body is so incredible with all the information it holds within itself.

REDISCOVERING Jerry Seinfield’s Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee.  I used to watch this all the time but forgot about it.  Last night I learned I have three seasons to catch up on and I’m so excited.

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Recently, I stumbled across this article about a young model that was quitting Instagram. At first, when I saw the title I thought it was an Oniony-type of article. You know, the kind that is sarcastic, a satire piece. But as I read more, it was serious; about an Australian girl who had over 500,000 followers.  She lived for social media’s approval until one day realized she was done.

It goes on to tell how she had had an epiphany and decided that it was all bogus. She opened up about all the unhealthy things she was doing in order to get more likes and the sponsorships that forced her to fabricate her life. She decided to comment on each of her pictures and tell the real story behind them. She would say things like, “I never even wore this outfit out of the house” or, “I took this image 400 times before I got the right shot.” Her vulnerability and honesty was courageous to me. It might seem comical, but this is the world we live in. People measure their worth on how many likes they get.

I am all about changing social media as we know it. I have never felt fully comfortable with it. I have come to notice that I only click those applications if I am bored, want to avoid being alone or procrastinating. As of right now, I am taking a break from Instagram for a bit and trying to use the time I spent on it to talk to someone in person.

The thing is, I remember a time when Sunday dinners were a thing and people shared their pictures in person. When you would hear the real stories that were attached to the images. I remember when you were bored, you called a friend to play or walked over to the neighbor’s house. I want that time back or at least to know that we are working towards more personal connection and not less. Who is with me?

If you want to see someone living their truth, check out Essena O’Neill’s new website and videos here.

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