There was a split second in time this year that I felt like everything was just right. I remember feeling so grateful that everything in my life was great. I loved my job for the first time in my life, I was making new friends, the sun was shining, all of the people I loved were healthy or on their way to greater health, I loved my boyfriend more and more each day. It all felt, well, perfect. And in the moment, I relished in it.
I knew it was only a matter of time until we would need to fix the car or I would face another obstacle. And of course those things did happen.
Over these past couple of months, I have felt some extreme highs and some disappointing lows. The high times felt like a buzzing energy that was almost, at times, too much. The low times have been a subtle sadness and more just a bummer than anything else.
I am telling you this because in this moment (who knows if it will last), all of those highs and lows feel like perfection too. As my mom reminded me, everything is always coming back to balance. I think the key thing for me is to remind myself during low times, and even high ones, that everything will balance itself out in the end.
So, I am relishing in that realization for the time being.